shutting down

i hope i can be much more awake! wake up from my dream. as usual, accessing to internet everyday, i'm not doing anything constructive yet the syllabus is getting tougher and tougher!i know that i was dreaming right now, dreaming at my own circumstance.i know that if i carry on to study in such way, i'll regret just like in spm(the only spm in my life where i didnt score full) Knowing that it's harmful for me,yet i still didnt do any progressive.Instead, others show their hardwork and believe it, they'll pass by u!(seriously)im still struggling around the same problem.i'm tired, and i terribly want to get off from it!but, i failed! im pretending that i dont care.in fact,it's torture me! it's really the time for me to shut down all these!